Now I'm going to try and focus on all the good things in my life since I've felt so incredibly negative inside lately. I think this is a good practice for anyone even if you're just down because lets face it Winter is loooooong.
My dog:
Let me tell you about this amazing dog I have! Through all the pain and suffering, the one thing I know I can count on is coming home to my dog's happy excited greeting every day at the top of my basement stairs. I swear to god that this dog has saved me so many times from myself, making me laugh when I needed it most. I know its ridiculous, but he is just the cutest dog I've ever seen. Even better, he seriously thinks he's human, as you can see in this photo where he is sitting at our table (he did this all on his own too).
Family:
I moved closer to my parents when I took a job in Cranberry, which was nice because we are so close and they are probably the number one supporters of every single thing I go through. I don't know where I'd be without them, or my gram and close relatives. That is what inspires me to want to become a mother so I can show that love I've been given and blessed with to my own children.
Friends:
I have some really amazing friends. I don't see any of my good friends as much as I wish I could, because the moments I have with them are truly better than any medicine out there. If your reading this and your one of those friends, know that I love you! And I'm so grateful.
Hubby:
I guess I should probably give my best friend some credit here. I love my husband, and this process is so tough that some days I am so scared that it will break us. He gets the brunt of my emotional outbursts, my bad days at work, and the lowest lows every time another result comes back negative, and he's still standing by my side. I'm thankful for him. Its just all the more reason I want us to have a family. I know he'd be such an amazing father.
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